Psalm 139: 16: Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed, and in Your book they all were written, The days fashioned for me, When as yet there were none of them.
Jeremiah 1: 5: “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you; Before you were born I sanctified you; I ordained you a prophet to the nations.”
Ephesians 1: 3-5: Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love, having predestined us to adoption as sons by Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the good pleasure of His will.
Psalm 139:6: Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; It is high, I cannot attain it.
Perhaps I was a strange young child, but I specifically remember a time and a place when the question suddenly struck me: where was I before I was born? How troubling to imagine the stark, dark nothingness of being no one, no where, for an endless amount of time before those few recent years of my existence! I can only imagine the despair of atheists, who consider this prospect from the other end of the spectrum, believing this life is all there is and that when they die, they will be swallowed up into the oblivion of that stark, dark, nothingness, being no one, no where forever. (Sadly, according to the Bible, their future is far, far worse.)
With little understanding of the triune God, my childlike faith revolved around Jesus and I knew that when I died He would take me to heaven to be forever with Him, so that was covered. But where and who was I before? Though I moved on from the crisis without asking anyone and didn’t dwell on it, the question remained an enigma.
It’s not as if I one day had the answer, but during the course of my journey in faith (still under construction), after reading God’s word, receiving guidance and interpretation from the Holy Spirit, attending church and Bible studies, and listening to good Bible teachers, it all seems much clearer.
The Bible presents a sovereign, always-has-been and always-will-be God, the great I AM (Exodus 3:14), who is all-knowing, all-powerful, all-seeing, ever-present and any other all that we can imagine–“the same yesterday, today, and forever”(Hebrews 13:8). He operates outside of time, space, and matter and any other unknown realm. He is “the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End, the First and the Last” (Revelation 22:13). He sees the end from the beginning, and His thoughts are so much higher than our thoughts that they are described as “higher than the heavens are above the earth.” (Isaiah 55:8-9.)
I have no doubt that He is the Creator God who spoke all things into existence, in conjunction with Jesus and the Holy Spirit (Genesis 1, John 1:1-10, Colossians 1:15-16, Hebrews 1:1), and that in His divine foreknowledge He could look down through the corridor of time and know that someone as insignificant as I am would at some point place saving belief in the Lord Jesus Christ. Thus, He chose me and adopted me “before the foundation of the world to be ‘in Christ.'”(See Ephesians 1:3-5 above.)
Despite the fact that He knew every sin I would ever commit, by His loving kindness, tender mercies, and amazing grace and based solely upon my repentance, and faith in the death, burial, and resurrection of Jesus for my sins; and, apart from any good thing I could or would ever do (Ephesians 2:8-9), He gave me the free gift of eternal life purchased by the blood of Jesus, His one and only Son who He would send in the fullness of time (Galatians 4:4) to redeem all who will believe in Him as their Lord and Savior. (See John 3:16 and Romans 10:9-10). At that moment I received the greatest exchange of all: my sin for Christ’s righteousness (2nd Corinthians 5:21), the only hope of salvation for all mankind, and His Holy Spirit came to live in my heart, sealing me until the day of my final redemption (2nd Corinthians 1:21-22).
Not only did He choose me before the foundation of the world, but He prepared good works for me to do (Ephesians 2:10). Psalm 139:16 (above) goes into specific details: “Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed, And in Your book they all were written, The days fashioned for me, When as yet there were none of them.”
Amazingly, according the Ephesians 2:5-6, written by the Apostle Paul under the inspiration of the Holy Spirit, even as I live the rest of my days here on planet earth, God sees me already in heaven, raised up to “sit together in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus.”
1st John 5:11 states it so well: “And this is the testimony: that God has given us eternal life; and the life is in His Son. He who has the Son has life; he who does not have the Son of God does not have life.” Life–past, present, and future–all inclusive in one Person. This is the blessed hope of all true believers.
With the Psalmist, I must proclaim: “Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; It is high, I cannot attain it.”(See above). Wondrous mystery of all, according to God’s unfailing word, even before I was formed in my mother’s womb and made my entrance into this world, I was in God’s book and on God’s time, all made possible because of Jesus. Someday it will all become clearer, I know, but for now this glorious glimpse of such an indescribable truth is all that I need!!
*All scripture taken from the New King James Version
(I realize this is a deep, unfathomable subject and that I could never do it justice. If you get lost in it all, focus on the the scripture, not my take on it, and ask the Holy Spirit to speak to your heart in a way that only He can.)
(Most of all if you do not have this blessed hope, know that God loves you and wants you to be with Him forever. That’s why He sent Jesus. According to 2nd Peter 3:9: “God is not slack concerning His promise, as some count slackness, but is longsuffering toward us, not willing that any should perish but that all should come to repentance. Why not ask Him to come into your heart today?)
For further study: John 3:1-18; 1st Corinthians 15:1-4; Romans 3:10; Romans 3-23; Romans 5:12; Romans 6:23; Romans 5:8; Romans 10:9,10; 2nd Corinthians 5:21; Revelation 3:20; Ephesians 2:8-9; Galatians 2:16; John 14:6; Psalm 139 in its entirety